Firstly, the kids' dad is getting remarried in November. He met his new woman in March, and they're soul mates (which I actually believe to be true... they seem perfect for each other)... but because she doesn't want the same last name as me, we all are going to be changing our names. I am returning to Jackson and am thrilled, and the kids will become Jackson Cusick, which thrills me even more. My parents are such a part of their lives, and I have always been a Jackson, so I'm glad that their names will show that. I've actually always wanted it, so I am really looking forward to the change... I'm not looking forward to new email addresses and social security cards, etc... but the symbolism is worth it.
I started a women's Bible study on the book of James, and I think that God is really trying to speak to me. Sometimes it is like your mind and heart have been opened and you can truly see the way that you should live and what God truly wants from you. I think that is part of why I'm trying to write in this blog. God is at work in me and in my life in a way that can speak to others. I've been called to inspire others to reach their potential, and I think that some of the trials that I have overcome will help others to see there is a greener pasture, there is an end to the madness... but then again, just when you think you have it figured out, something that was tied in a tidy bow falls apart. Something that the leader of the study, Beth Moore, said that was really poignant to me was (in reference to the way James speaks to us) "You can't grace yourself out of obedience." I think that sometimes we want to do God's will, but it is too hard or not as fun. I think we constantly have to try to make the choices to live well. It's a never-ending battle.
Overall, I am currently overwhelmed with school about to start (I'm student teaching this fall!!! YAY!!) and cheerleading back in full swing. I can't wait to see what this year brings! Whatever the trials, I know it will all be worth it.
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